Happiness

2009-12-11T20:26:00.000-08:00

this wont be a happy post.
i have a family problem.
not my problem but it affects me.
long story uhh. dun wanna talk about it. it'll piss me.
this problem, full of selfishness and anger.
i am so f--k up with it.
no respect. no forgiveness and sincerity. sigh.
now im pissed. dun wanna type anymore lahh.

2009-11-22T00:22:00.000-08:00

i think this would be the last post im gonna post this month. hahh..

actually i am not those types that always on the computer.
maybe i was trained to be like one.
so, im not a well-connected person.
i have no facebook, twitter on any webs. i just have a blog.
how unconnected i am. hah.

what i do today.
im the bright morning, me and my cousins went breakfast at Mcdonald.
then, we all go for a rollerblading at the park.
i fell 3 times.
1. i fell on my butt because i rolled too fast.
2. i fell on my body because i swinged too high and on the swing at the playground.
3. finally, i fell SAFELY because i hit a bumped on the road while rollerblading but managed to fall safely.

it hurts and burns for awhile but it broke my stress away.
basically i was happy today.
and i bullied my soon-gonna-be-primary-one-kid cousin.
ohh, it was her graduation day yesterday. it was super cute.
all of the little kids were so talented! each group performed an individual theme.
like, cotemperary, cha-cha, classical and more!!!

hmm.. im gonna end the post here. bye.

2009-11-21T01:37:00.000-08:00

hey.... posting this blog for the sake of zulfiqar. hah.
hey.... long time havent update.
i deleted my previous blogs because it brings out the memories that caused pain.
now, i am happy as i are/is.
i kept smilling all day long
i am crazy.
i am just... annoying,
but.. there's something bothering me.
someone. that person was on my mind. hah.
i think im in love. AGAIN.
honestly, i fall for the wrong person.
at a wrong time.
let me tell you why....
basically, im afraid that this love thing will bring me down again.
he is my friend's friend.
its just impossible.
so now. i just want to forget about it.
its hard u knw.
but i have to for the sake of the better.
honestly, i could lose a friend that i loved and trust too for falling for him.
so now, i just have to endure the feelings, accept his presence and just..... forget the love.
maybe im meeting him next week. through that, i could accept his presence. hahh... love is just... complicated u knw. and, to move on, i can only let myself cry for five minutes. to seize the pain from my fragile heart. hah. just to add on, he has the same passion as mine.